Saturday, February 19, 2022

Nocturnal Visitors

I dreamed I had three pets.  Two cats and a dog.  They were all accidental / rescues - animals who had either come to me or been given to me (in the case of the dog temporarily), and then just stayed.  I had the same condo, but I was able to lean out the window and talk to the people in the next house.  A man asked me if my water bill had been high.  His wife came into my house out of curiosity.

I'm reading Parable of the Sower and it's a revelation.  Written in 1993, it's so prescient.  I realized from looking at the flyleaf that Octavia Butler was someone I should have discovered long ago, and would have loved.  I mourned the fact that she died young in 2006.  But now there are all the other books she wrote that I can explore.  She had such a sharp mind and wonderful imagination.

Back to the dream, though, dreaming of pets leaves me with a comforting spiritual residue.  The purity of animal's souls is so reassuring.

I don't know if anybody even reads my blog anymore.  I haven't tended it in a long time.  It's like a neglected garden that has turned to weeds and stick-like skeletons of previous plants.

But there's something different about blogging than journaling.  It bypasses the mundane.  It gives the other parts of my brain a voice.

It snowed this morning.  Wind-blown flakes that left little handkerchief patterns on the gray wooden slats of the porch.  But now it seems to be finished, and the grass is still that combination of tough, green grass and the dead brown leaves that have fallen off my neighbor's tall trees.

I love those trees almost as much as the plants on my kitchen shelves.  I think it might be time for the geraniums to bloom again.  The red one first.  Then the white.

There's no point to this, obviously.  I just wanted to mark the place where the two cats and dog appeared.  One of the cats was a brown and gray tiger.  She was curled purring at my feet.  The other cat was black and white with a patch of white over one eye.  He was young and active, always chasing some invisible creature around the rooms.  And the dog was a small brown and white mutt with soft fur and a sweet, imploring face.  He was sitting with his head on his front paws, looking up at me under those expressive doggy eyebrows.

They didn't have names in the dream.  And aren't all names just incidental?


Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Outside

 




The cold crisp air

Gray sturdy trees

Straight pathway

Beckons faithfully

 

Any declaration

Bold or timid

Is a flag waved

To the winds of karma

 

Life and breath

Are more than automatic

Each moment we sip

The wondrous oxygen

 

We know our debt

While energy bubbles

In our veins

We take a step

 

Along this faithful path

Among these valiant trees

One reality giving way

To the next unknown.

 

11/30/2021.  I’ve been more and more aware that we are living in a new reality. We cannot pretend to know what’s coming.  It’s all new.  How we navigate it is all we really control.  Even going outside is brave.  What I find interesting is how similar this poem is to the one I wrote in August. 

Saturday, August 21, 2021

Uncertainty

 

Everything now is just navigating uncertainty

Each day is a treasure of newness

I have given up the illusion of control

I have become a child of curiosity

Driven only by the need to experience each day

I will remember this time

I will cherish these days

Governed by a larger hand

Free from manipulation

Expectation

Exhortation

I will remember how to flow.